tis the season
it's that time of year again. in a lot of places, the leaves start to brown and fall from their branches, the temperature drops, and the nights grow long.
i find that around now is when i'm at my worst. i'm sadder, more tired, and a lot of the things i enjoy don't make me as happy. about two years ago i had a breakdown so bad i had to pull myself out of school just so i wouldn't blow up and stab someone (or myself)
i'm not entirely sure what it is. it might be seasonal depression, but i haven't done much research into that topic. there's also a chance that it's because bad things tend to happen in my life during the -ber months.
i'll try to get out of the house more, and do more stuff. maybe i won't be as sad then.